I've been away a while for various reasons and as usual pure idleness figures highly but here I am all set to tap away on the new computer now that Mr FF has finally let me have the password.
I'm in a funny state of mind, not sad exactly just wondering who I am and where I belong at the moment. We had to go down to Yorkshire this week for a family funeral, my cousin's husband died suddenly. Being in the village where I went to school, with people I've known all my life and who are still in the same place really got me thinking. Mr FF and I have moved around since we were married 42 years ago, we've had 7 houses and for the last 24 years have lived in Scotland. My recently bereaved cousin lives in the village where she was born and has only ever in her whole life lived in two houses both in the same road. She is now back in the albeit revamped house where she was born. My brother also lives in the house where he and I were born and his two daughters and two granddaughters are not far away.
Back in Scotland I also attended this week a memorial lunch for a dear friend's Mum who died recently at the grand old age of 95. The lunch was to celebrate her life at one of her favourite restaurants, attended by her children, grandchildren and great grandchildred, plus old friends and neighbours and the extended family of which I am proud to be a member. It was a positive uplifting event, with many photos of Betty's life and a humour filled speech from her grandson. Betty had moved round too, from Scotland to England and back again but was fortunate that her family seemed to follow her and she ended her days living close to them.
However, it all got me thinking. I love being in Italy with all our friends in the village, I love my house and garden in Scotland and all the friends I've made here but I still call Yorkshire home and its calling me. Maybe I just want the best of everything, the sunny Italy life style, my comfy Scottish house and to be surrounded by everyone I care for. Maybe its because we are thinking of downsizing and don't know where to that is disconcerting me, maybe its just old age.
I hope you are feeling a bit more grounded and enjoy your weekend, which for us is forecast to be chilly.
And finally I have managed to upload a photograph, view from the family room. Not easy working with a new computer system, new is certainly not better, I definitely need some fresh air. Back soon.